today U made me cry... i want to rip my heart out of my chest because of too much pain U caused. now i want to start my life again without U. if i truly care about myself, i should stop loving U.

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Thursday:
 
i received two text messages which left me fleeting and floating and falling. i wasn't sure if it was good or bad for me but they really affected my day.
 
one was from.. oh do i still need to mention him?i ended everything that day. i realized im too good to be in that kind of situation. when he called me up and told me if would i still wanna give him a chance.. i answered "wala" with no hesitation at all. it felt so easy. he talked. he wanted me to talk. but i did not. I WANTED TO TELL HIM SO MUCH, actually! but i just didn't. words wouldn't wanna come out of my mouth. after all, it will just end up a cycle: he'll woo me, i'll refuse at first, but after a few persuasion, we'll be back together again..and i'll fall again..and then he will do stupid things, and i'll get mad..and then all will go back to the beginning.and i didn't like it anymore. this time, i decided to stop the cycle. i just felt that everything went overboard. i felt so bad telling him i don't want him anymore. for a while. but now i really feel that i made the right decision.
 
the 2nd was from a very good friend. i knew him for almost 6 years now, and gosh, he never failed to paint a smile on my face!! omg! i crush him a lot!!!haha! he said he's coming to town the following day and he wanted to see us his friends, whoever's available to meet him.. and yah, i said i'll meet him!hehe i was excited! :))))
 

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Friday:
 
i arrived at the office at 2pm. i went to TMC to visit my cousin nognog. he was scheduled for operation to remove his tonsils.hay kawawa! i felt his pain. i feel that in time, if i wont take good care of my tonsils, i might just need to have them removed out of my body, too. ouch!
 
it was a college friend's birthday and it was like a get together of college friends which i didn't get to see for quite a time. we just ate at avenetto in glorietta. had fun taking pics and poked fun at carlos and roma (the good old days' love team!). after dinner, i took a slice of pizza for my friend. i texted him after we finished dinner. we met at outside avenetto and introduced him to a few friends.
 
we soon headed to the cinema. we watched iron man. oh we chitchatted first at the foodcourt while he ate the pizza i brought him. after watching sine, he then went to see another friend while i headed home straight. twas a fun fun evening! i so missed him and i did tell him that! :))
 

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Saturday:
 
we were supposed to go to tagaytay to see my cousin coz he was inviting us to come over. but because of the heavy rain, we weren't able to leave. tsk tsk. we just stayed at home and listened to the news. it saddened me when i heard about the earthquake in china and the typhoon that hit pangasinan and other provinces. hindi nako masyado nag-pay attention kse ang saklap! not to mention the massacres in cabuyao and calamba. hay! kawawa talaga! if its just within my capacity, kng pwede lang maligtas lahat ng taong inosente gagawin ko! kaso di naman ako superhero!hay! :((
 

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Sunday:
 
we did not really do a lot of things as it was raining really hard. we just heard the 10am mass in UP and headed home. nothing beats a whole day family bonding at home! :) i'll surely miss this when nanay goes home to iloilo. :(
 

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Monday:
 
nognog, my cousin's home now. he went through an operation to remove his tonsils. wawa talaga.
 
and oh! this day, it was official. my kuya's jobless! yah, he didn't really wanna work ata ll..i don't know what to react! :|
 

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Tuesday:
 
got up early so i can come in to the office early. i have a scheduled eye check up at 6pm! so i had to be out by 4:30. i was with my sister, mother, tita and lola! all 5 of us had our eyes checked!hehe it was actually a sad news. the doctor detected i have migraine. funny coz i've been telling this to my family since i was in college. i was telling them my head aches regularly and that this could be migraine. and everybody was like what-the-hell-are-you-taling-about?. seems that it just takes a doctor's word for everyone to believe me. hey i know my self and the pain i'm goin through more than anyone else! :) oing back to my illness, it's nurotic and there wasn't any cure for it yet. so he told me to avoid coffee, milk, chocolate (tubig na lang daw???!!!) and everything that has caffeine. he told me to avoid sunrays and wear shades if needed. avoid stress and observe whatever else that could trigger my migraine. aaa.poor me! i'm getting sickly!
 

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Wednesday:
 
i came in the office at 6am and left at 10:30am! beat that!haha nanay, nene aulive, ems, thea and i went to tagaytay to visit nong dante, our 3rd cousin. he was managing a retreat house in tagaytay. he invited us to come and visit their retreat house. it was really a one-of-a-kind visit to tagaytay! every place we went to are so very spiritual.. the place where we stayed in is so peaceful and quiet, we sooo loved it! we were so full with the meals that were served. thanks a lot nong dante for the accomodation! i sure will go back there when i find time, hay! the best things in life are indeed libre!haha
 

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Today:
 
i just got in. kinda tired from byahe but its ok. my boss is out up to the 27th, so here i am, blogging!haha lovit! =)

before this year ends,

i should become a domesticated goddess!!! meaning i should teach myself how to cook.. marunong na rin naman ako maglinis ng haus eh.. and magbaby sit (the best chore ever!)..

i should become a book worm.. grabe kelan kaya ako makakatapos ng book sa isang sitting?! kung hindi ako nakakatulog, lumilipad utak! i really love to read, feeling ko naman sobrang saya magbasa..as in tipong you shut yourself off from everyone else and temporarily create a world of your own.. super i miss this feeling! so dapat this year, meron akong mabasang at least 5 books! ang hina no, 5 lang.. but knowing me, it is already a feat!hehe

i should become a charitable charmer! dapat linisin ko na closet ko, get rid of all those kalat, donate clothes which i don't anymore use and keep only those i need!!! and ultimately minimize shopping! (parang mahirap ata to!)

i feel like it's someone-close-to-me's birthday today. i just cant recall who. darn!

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i'm so bored. so sleepy. i've been forcing myself to sleep for a few mintues since i went back from lunch but i couldn't. demn!

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i'll just share what happened last night. bebs, marci, ralph and i had dinner at mega. i'm not sure how it started, i just caught myself being teased/matched to all their boy friends (with or without girlfriends), showing their pictures to me, hoping that by some twist of fate, i might like one of their guy friends, and a romance might blossom. yah, i know they were just kidding and making fun of me, but that joke made me reflect for a while. yes, i have no boyfriend. it was my choice before. but now, not anymore. though i've always wanted to be back in someone's arms, i couldnt. fate just wont allow it to happen. and i realized its been years that i'm this way. a hopeless romantic. im not in a hurry. walang halong kaplastikan, i really feel happy and contented with my life (except during those few times he gets in my mind). generally, i'm happy with everything that's going on with my life, my career, my family and friends.

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some thoughts occured to me. why can't some people believe that a person can be happy without a guy? of course, a person can feel complete just by being herself. yes, there are things a single person can't do that a committed girl can. but life doesn't end there. after all, we were born in this world to be survivors. we should be able to make the most out of our lives regardless of the circumstances. there!

well i guess, the title says it all. i just want to expound further on the things i find soo interesting.

sa baguio...

walang rice shortage

walang supladong taxi driver

dapat mag-ingat sa pagtawid

dapat maganda brakes ng sasakyan mo

madaming park

madaming masasayang alaala..

hehe corny na.. wala na ako maisip, pero bat parang nung nasa Baguio ako andami kong naisip na gusto kong i-blog!? hehe weird!

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we stayed at UP Dormitory, thanks to Dr. Third Dacanay for the accomodation. we were blessed to have stayed in UP as it has a nice location. we were near Session Road, SM, Japanese Garden and Sunshine Park (oddly, we weren't able to visit JG and SP ksi iniisip namin malapit lang naman, so puro kmi "later" until we ran out of time, hehe)

it was a wonderful trip. i'm happy because i saw my family enjoyed the trip. btw, did i mention i planned everything about the trip? :) again, i'm proud of myself (ahem!). haha